evolution

How do you start anything? Especially since most of all life is in the middle? I can sense it. This is the next chapter or stage as people have said before. I prefer evolution. I wouldn’t be where I am if it wasn’t for before.

I went through the pandemic and came out the other side a little more patient, a little less “driven," a homeowner, and, most significant, a father. Parenthood has been the most effective catalyst of change and truth that I’ve ever encountered. And I’ve done hallucinogens. More than I can count.

I’m wondering at this point in time: How do I invest in myself? Because what do I want from myself? What am I giving? How am I showing up? What is my character? What do I do with my voice?

Of course, I’ve got the answers to all these questions. I just don’t have time to list them, acknowledge them, or admit there is no concrete answer. Nothing I can put a finger on. No North Star.

That’s why I like evolution. Evolution is just a response to the stimulus. It’s what was, affecting what is, creating what will be.

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